Miscarriage

Me and my best friend got pregnant around the same time but unfortunately I had a miscarriage and this month would have been the month I give birth. Well I got to see my best friends baby and my family of course obsessing over how cute she was and when asked if I wanted to hold her I just couldnt do it. Is it wrong of me to not be able to hold her? I want to be a supportive friend and im trying the best I can but It just hurts knowing my reality is that Im left alone with absolutely nothing. I want to tell her how im feeling but I also dont want to give her the impression I dont want my best friend over just because She has the baby. And How can I even get over this pain? Talking hasn’t been helping the situation.