Never felt so alone.

My twin girls are 6 months old and from the day they where born my OH has been awful with me and with them...

He has never done a night feed. He never baths them. Changes them and if he does he has to whinge about it.

He goes to work in the morning but doesn’t offer to do a feed change them and put them back to bed so I get a few extra hours sleep because apparently I don’t do anything for him.

I cook, clean. Do washing and look after our babies. He tret me so bad the other day that when he came back from work I hadn’t done anything. House was a mess. No food on etc! He then got his phone out and started recording saying ‘look how lazy she is, I come home and nothing is done.’

He doesn’t even speak to me. He just shouts and complains that I don’t do anything. That he doesn’t get sex anymore. That I’m miserable. That his life is ‘boring’

We were ment to go shopping today but he stormed out and left me and the girls stuck at home again all day. Before he left he told me to get out the house.

So I packed all of mine and the girls things.

He then came back and started going through the girls clothes saying ‘you’re not taking that, that’s mine’ blah blah blah. Rang his dad and said that I was threatening to take the kids away from him and apparently I’m the abusive one and I’m controlling and wouldn’t let him go out (he’s 31 by the way) .

He is honestly in a world of his own and makes up lies to his family to make out I’m the bad one.

He has a gambling addiction and doesn’t pay ONE bill. I pay for everything when I’m only getting maternity money. Half of what he gets and when I bring it up he goes crazy saying I’m a money grabbing bitch.

I feel like I need to go but I’m so scared of being on my own. And it’s so close to Christmas...