so this year has been one of the hardest on me for lots of personal reasons. i ended up gaining a lot of weight due to a medication i’m no longer on & my serve depression. & looking back on old photos of me & wondering how i could’ve let myself go this far hurts, my body, my mental health, my face, my skin has gotten so bad when i used to have much clearer skin. that’s probably from stress & just because of my age as well (i’m 15) but i want to get back to how i used to look & have a glowup but i’m just so overwhelmed. because the main this is that i don’t feel like me anymore, i feel like i completely lost myself this year & all i want is to be the person i used to be when i was genuinely happy & didn’t have to fake a smile, i was so funny & could put a smile on anyone face not even having to try, i wasn’t so shy & would actually put myself out there more, wasn’t so anxious & depressed all the time, i was the kind of person everyone wanted to be friends with & now i have none, i lost the little bit of self confidence i used to have & now have absolutely none, i think that my mindset has completely changed if that makes sense. i just wish i could go back in time. unfortunately i let my depression get the best of me. so yeah this year has completely took a wrong turn on my life, my mental & physical health. now i’m at a point where i feel stuck in this rut that i’ve dug myself in. i want to change myself & my life for the better but i don’t know where to start or how to do so. so if you can help me then please do, i’m desperate.