How should I get over this?

Damn after what all these boys did to me how do I still have a heart? Ladies? What age y'all found the man y'all had y'all first with and will spend the rest of your life with? And it's crazy because I keep telling myself *boys don't love u , *boys don't want your whole heart . *they want your body and the let your heart sink in lava... How do I not pay attention to these boys out here? I feel like I'm dumb sometimes... Telling myself love is no such thing... A few weeks later its somebody that claim they wanna get with me soo bad and yeaa I kinda fall for it... I just wish fallin in love or LOVE wasn't a such thing... I want a regular life like the rest of the teenage girls do... Please please someone give me one gooood ole advice that will really help 😩. Gn