😪😢😭Hoping Today's The Day

Hey ladies

So today I turn 43 if it's your B-DAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY❤

But the reason I'm writing out this vlog is because my husband and I have not exactly been the best of friends when it comes to having sex around that crucial time he's 63yrs old all though he looks 45 yrs old. But any way yea it's like his libido is gone I have to beg him when I get a positive to try to make a little 👶 baby.

We recently in July lost my son at 5months pregnant my water broke and I bleed my whole pregnancy cause of low platelets and where the placenta was my son was stillborn I have his urn Wright beside my bed.since than it feels hopeless a woman can never understand until she's been through it herself what it os to lose a child.But back to the story

Ive been testing getting negatives today I'm 11dpo and thinking what a gift from God if I got 2lines today.im so 😥 sad my husband asked me what I wanted for my birthday I told him to not fight in those crucial times when sex is needed I even told him At least 2 times when I get my positives he said ok.like I believe that I'm trying not to lose faith in God the man that does the impossible.But like I said praying with all my heart for my birthday I find out there's a little life in me growing.To know I will be able to finish what god started.So ladies thanks for reading my hurt ñ feelings sorry it was so long I really needed to vent or I will lose my mind please wish me luck and thank you for all the woman I became friends with on here❤❤❤❤