Devastated..

After my period being later than usual it came this morning and I am devastated because I just hoped this was it I’m finally pregnant but I guess I jinxed it so tired of this it’s been 8 months now and I’m just sad and feel like less of a women I’m only 19 yes there’s still time but this is what me and my husband want I get so jealous over people who go at it randomly and they are pregnant I don’t even know what to do today all by myself...