So lately I’ve been feeling really depressed well at least more than normal and I keep having panic attacks in my sleep I remember all the things I dream about and they’ve been bad lately like about my parents and when they split up and when my mom left and then when they got back together and my sister died as a baby then when my grandpa started coughing up blood and died a week later and I keep thinking that I could’ve done something to stop it all and I know that it’s not my fault and it’s just my depression trying to mess with me and make me feel worse but I can’t avoid it it’s really hard and I need help and you guys are the only ones I know that can kinda help me so please help me