So I’ve been with my boyfriend for 3 years and I’ve recently found some things out. I was trying to find a confirmation email on his phone which he knew about, I don’t just go snooping through his phone, and found old emails of him sexting and talking about doing meetups on Craigslist. Which kinda broke my heart, but whatever we weren’t together. I never brought it up. We work constantly so most of the time we’re not in the mood to have sex, well mainly him so one night, on our day off I might add, I asked if we could have sex and he said he was tired so I’m like okay that’s fine and I went to sleep. 3 hours later I wake up with indigestion and run to the bathroom to and he’s sitting on the toilet with MY phone in his hand jerking off. He tried hiding it and lying saying it was his phone then ran to the bed to try and play it off. I was fuming. I had mentioned to him that I was really insecure since we hadn’t been touching me or in the mood as often so to see that he’d rather do that hurt so bad. Last time I noticed he was watching porn I expressed my feeling to him and I thought we had came to some agreement. I know he’s going to watch porn from time to time but I feel like he’d rather do that then actually have sex with me. And the stuff he seems to be into, which I’ve noticed with his browser history and from what he was sexting previously was nothingggg like the sex we have. I have told him many times the things I’m into and he acts weird like he doesn’t want to but yet that’s what he’s getting off to in videos?? I’ve bought toys and costumes, sent pictures and videos of myself and nothing seems to help. I know he’s been watching porn more often lately also because we now have sex maybe 3 times a week, and he takes sooooo in the mornings in the bathroom, which he admitted that’s when he used to do his thing. I don’t know how to control the situation, and he works at a phone store so there’s absolutely no way of me ever no owing if that was the extent to everything, he’s bragged about knowing how to completely erase stuff and blah blah. Am I being crazy and looking to far into it or what.