Today 9 years ago I found out my daughter had passed on while inside my tummy. If I close my eyes I still rmeber the details of everything like I'm still there.... No heartbeat, collapsed brain... 😭, having to be rushed to the operating room to take her out... Being drugged... Feeling numb.

This year however I am waiting for the arrival of my rainbow baby. In trying sk hard to focus on that. Keep checking that baby is moving and nothing craxy is happening.

Family will join me shortly, so I hope these thoughts will just go away 😩...

This is the longest I've ebeen pregnant. 4 days shy of 40 weeks... 💖💖💖 Opting for natural.