I'm heavily Pregnant right now and just lost my best friend. She's been with me through so much and got me through the worst times in my life. I'm having a really hard time right now... I think i need to make a therapy appointment or go to church or both or something my ESA just got ran over by a car and I feel responsible for it. She was put up in the room with her two young pups and I had just gotten back from a long day I played with her for a bit outside then took her and the pups back in, I put the puppies back up in the room for a moment and ended up letting my girl go back out to finish her business with my grandpas dog. She saw some kids across the street and ran at them cause she wanted them to pet her and play, I was yelling for her to come back and right when she hit the street a car went by and *thud* my heart dropped I made my grandfather take me to the vet even though he told me she was dead cause I couldn't believe it... I just had to lay my best friend in a hole in the ground the one that's been with me through everything and I have no idea how I'm going to cope i know all this stress and anxiety and hyperventilation isn't good for the baby but I can't stop the moment she died just keeps playing over and over again in my head and it's like it will never end I keep thinking I'll see her come around the corner all tail wagging and giddy but I know I'll never see that again. It hurts. Please keep your fur babies on a leash, no matter how much you trust them or how little time theyll spend outside or how close you are. The worst can happen so quick. I wish I would have had her on the leash I'll regret it forever. Rest well in heaven babygirl, momma's world, my TT. 9-23-17~ 12-20-19