I suffer from generalized anxiety disorder (GAD), OCD, PTSD, and Imposter Syndrome, along with a few phobias (tokophobia and globophobia being major ones). I am on no medication (last one gave me too many side effect and I haven’t been able to get into the doctors to change it yet.) and I literally wonder how I get through my days sometimes without losing my shit.

I have accomplished so much at such a young age and yet I have the fear of fucking up everything I do. I question everything I know and belittle myself because I always thing I could have done better, that what I do isn’t enough. I go out of my mind while being trapped inside my mind. Can barely work each day without having a full blown panic attack. But I hide it.

Some people just think I’m weak, but they really don’t understand how strong I have to be to put on a facade just to function like a normal human being.

I’m trying really hard in life, I’m trying my best.

Or am I?

Maybe that’s the anxiety talking, but maybe it’s not.