Long... sorry. Worst nightmare

My husband ODed on heroine laced with fentanyl last night. Had I not found him when I did, he would have died within minutes they told me. I knew he had drug problems in the past but never knew he was doing them again. I called 911 when I realized waking him up was not gonna happen. It’s all still a blur, I’m so hurt, feel so betrayed, ache, am furious... every single emotion... he told me I should have left him there. That “he would have woke up”. We have 5 kids in the house, and my mother lives in Hawaii, leaving and going with him was not an option at that point. I don’t have much support. I had called to get updates and they say that he was stable. I come to find out later that had to narcan him. It’s a scary situation. I’ve never been through this before. THEN, after they released him and a cop brings him home, he demands his money I had taken from his wallet, in hopes to avoid this AGAIN, but he says he’s leaving to go to Walmart. Where he then proceeds to get High again and then arrested this morning. To top it off, I now have guardianship over his son because his mother is no better than my husband. RIGHT after my husband wins custody. Seriously?!? How could he do this?! I don’t understand an addict’s mind but all I know it’s that it’s NOT my fault. He’s sitting in jail and I refuse to bail him out. His family isn’t bailing him out either. Locks are getting changed and he cannot come home till he gets the help he needs. But he’s gotta want it, and nobody can help him but himself. Court has ordered him to stay away from his son and this house. I need all the prayers I can get. I’m dealing with all these phone calls from DCS and the cops while I’m in the middle of my OB appt. baby was very active, lost 4 lbs but I’ve got to be strong for not only my kids, but for myself. Wish me luck ladies. ❤️ thanks for reading.