Inability to cry

Anna

I have been diagnosed with generalized depression with the comorbidity if anxiety back in my sophomore year of high school. In my jr year I was beginning to show sign of CPTSD in a very toxic environment and relationship. Ever since my freshman year of college I have barely cried. I’m a college sophomore now and I still feel that frustration and emptiness inside me. When I do, I want to cry but I physically can’t and when I manage a few crocodile tears I don’t get that release of emotion at all like I faked it. My life is all okay, I have what I need, good friends, great grades. Yet I feel this melancholy in my life and I can’t express it. Any tips, advice, or ideas?

Edit: after more google deep dives, many people seem to believe it is suppressed due from fear or anxiety of different outcomes based on past experiences??

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I don’t mean to suggest that this is the only solution or push my views on anyone by ANY means, but I experienced this frustrating problem for about about 12 years and was only ever able to cry angry tears, and my anxiety was so intense and free floating and unbearable for years. My fear and stress showed up only as anger and lashing out at myself and others. Eventually through my desperation to relieve some of my anxiety I decided that even though I didn’t truly believe in higher power I would say a prayer and direct at anyone or anything who might be listening and asked that if anyone was there they would relieve me of some of my anxiety and I instantly cried like a flood of real tears for the first time in years. It’s happened ever since for about a year now every time I pray and it’s always followed by an intense feeling of relief. Again, just my experience! I hope that whatever your beliefs, you find a release for your deep and complicated feelings and the resources that will most help you to get there! Mental illness is real and complex. I hope you are able to cry because sometimes it feels impossible. I wish you all the best ♥️

Em

Em • Dec 22, 2019
You don’t have to be religious to feel the effects of praying/talking to a higher power. There’s not a wrong way to do it.

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ва • Dec 22, 2019
That makes sense. I didn’t really personally connect with any of it either for a long time. I guess I just had an emotional breakthrough. I know you will experience the ability to cry at some point again in your life, no matter the reason! I hope it happens for you soon. ♥️

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Anna • Dec 22, 2019
Thank you :) I’ve tried getting into religion and all but I currently am just to busy and stressed to care at the moment. But when I do go a hear a preacher or something, or even music, or a lecture in class about something greater than us like higher powers or complex emotions, even philosophy I feel it coming on but never happens ya know?

Em

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Try expressing it in other ways. Art, dance, writing... it may take time to figure out what works best for you but keep at it. One place you could start is by asking yourself this question: what did I love to do as a kid? Then try doing that! It may be a little weird at first but you also may find relief. Hope it helps :)

Em

Em • Dec 22, 2019
That’s good! Do you exercise?

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Anna • Dec 22, 2019
It does at times I sing a lot and listen to music a lot as well, I even try to write poetry