I have been diagnosed with generalized depression with the comorbidity if anxiety back in my sophomore year of high school. In my jr year I was beginning to show sign of CPTSD in a very toxic environment and relationship. Ever since my freshman year of college I have barely cried. I’m a college sophomore now and I still feel that frustration and emptiness inside me. When I do, I want to cry but I physically can’t and when I manage a few crocodile tears I don’t get that release of emotion at all like I faked it. My life is all okay, I have what I need, good friends, great grades. Yet I feel this melancholy in my life and I can’t express it. Any tips, advice, or ideas?

Edit: after more google deep dives, many people seem to believe it is suppressed due from fear or anxiety of different outcomes based on past experiences??