22 December 2020

Ok soooooooo story time...

I was staying with my BD for six months and wound up preg again by him and let's just say I was in a shitty SHITuationship and he was kicking me out along with my eldest son (11yr) from a prior marriage and his first sun(2yr). I told my sister that I wanted out but I also told her I didnt want to stay by her cuz she already got alot to handle... but my sister took me and my kids in anyways. Ever since then she has NOT stop complaining about anything and everything and will literally throw temper tantrums despite who's around. She will constantly say "I cant wait for them to leave/get out of my house/get their own place" (them/they/their=me and my kids) AND she will say that in front of my kids! This has been going on for over a year since I've been here. My eldest son (11yr) already feels as if he doesnt belong due to the fact that her only son(also 11yr) bullies/terrorizes my kids. I've seen this kid (my nephew) push my kids and trip them and say things no toddler should ever repeat. Shes constantly telling me "you better clean your room!" Despite my area being spotless and telling me what I can and cannot do. She's constantly trying to throw away my things, my baby's playpen for example and when I bought that up she says its because she doesnt want it in her house. So my baby had no place to sleep. Every month she tells me (not asks for) to give her the FS card as if its hers. And EVERY SINGLE TIME I want my card back I "have to" give her an explanation as to WHY I want it back. Mind you, I have zero problems with contributing to the house and doing my part but for reasons I cannot fathom I have to ask permission to get my FS card back or to go somewhere ANYWHERE really. I'm soooooooo ready to leave this place but since I dont have any money to my name I guess have no choice but to put up with it.

ETA:

-I'm going to REDO the whole CSE thing tomorrow with kids in tow since It couldnt happen (for w/e reasons) before

-shes the ONLY one who "willing" to house me despite all that I described before

-Also, I've been trying to get a job since early November and no luck yet

ETA2:

14 January 2020

-Still no change. Due to no matter what I say or do I can't get any back up. If I leave to a shelter I won't be able to take many things with me cuz she WILL throw it out. AND CALL CPS to Get my kids taken away.

- now that hiring season is underway I've since put in probably thousands of applications

27 January 2020

-just found out that the van that was "stuck" in the driveway for years actually works and even tho no one uses it, it will not be given to me. Take note, I do not want the vehicle cuz there's no guarantee that it would actually maintain it's working power since it's so old.

-I say that, to say this; these people never actually cared about me or mine as long as they get what they wanted from me: An in-house babysitter (for the handicapped woman my sister takes care of & my handicapped brother), a maid and someone to just straight up take advantage of.

-I have talked to the exhusband and he said he could hold my stuff once he moves back to FL. Now I'm not entirely sure *where* I'm gonna live but I am working on it for the time being.