Despise doing ovulation testing!!! 😡

Does anyone else feel totally discouraged when they take an ovulation test and it doesn't show an LH surge?! I feel like it's a negative pregnancy test each time and it makes me so discouraged!! Currently on cycle day 19 and still no positive opk.. Last cycle I got a positive one on day 15 but 5 days later I began spotting then got my period a week later! I'm begin to think my body hates me it's been so irregular since I came off the pill ☹️😢