Failure as a women

It took me about 5 years to conceive my baby girl and that's with medication to help me.. unfortunately I had a ruptured membrane 2 days ago and baby girl didnt make it, her heart stopped beating today (she woulda been 17 weeks today)..I feel like I'm the only one who has all these problems in my family.. my nephews gf and my cousin are both pregnant and we were due the same month,,, I know imma be devastated seeing them get bigger and when their babies arrive I'll probably lose it 😔 I have a D&C scheduled today and getting all these contractions knowing I wont be taking a baby home with me makes it really hard,,

Any advice anything helps 😔