Rainbow baby moms HELP

Kim • 1 daughter on earth🎀 & 1 daughter in heaven🕊

My beautiful baby girl passed away at only 8 days old due to a brain tumor. My heart and soul ache. I know I can NEVER replace her but I would like to give my oldest daughter a sibling. I can’t help but go back and forth between guilt of possibly having another baby and joy trying to grow our family once again.

Please give me advice or input. This is all still new to me and I’d love to know I’m not alone because I definitely feel alone in this