I couldn’t walk and they were laughing at me

I feel so ashamed about last night. I went at a night club and wore my stilettos. I couldn’t handle them until the end of the night but I forced myself. I called my father to come and pick me up earlier because I couldn’t handle them anymore.

My friends let me leave totally alone (and they know how much I struggle even if I drink the tiniest amount of alcohol). I went outside the club’s entrance and couldn’t walk straight. I’m sure I would fall if I let them on, so I removed them and walked outside to my Dad’s car barefoot. There were some males standing outside the club (maybe 30-40 of them) drinking their cigarettes, and once they saw me removing my shoes they started laughing at me. I really don’t know if what I did is funny/crazy or if it is a normal thing to do. I just couldn’t walk straight with them and I was risking of falling. Anyway, I think it’s funnier to walk like an intoxicated duck to walking barefoot outside, so I don’t really get why they were laughing and not even asking me if I wanted any help.

It’s one of the only times in my life I felt so targeted. Because I was the only female outside it’s logical that all eyes were on me. I just can’t stop overthinking about it. I cry all day. Why are people so mean? I wonder, if I kept them on and fell, would anyone come to help me? Or would they laugh again?