I can't stop the tears. The feeling of betrayal, dissapointment in myself, that I let my children down, that I never learned, that I'm not worth anything... I never felt so hurt and stupid. I really hate myself. I'm stupid and worthless. I put my all into nothing over and over again hoping for a different outcome like a complete idiot. No matter how much I love or what I do I finally see I'm not good enough.