I spent 2 years TTC. I experienced two ectopic pregnancies, endometriosis, two surgeries, a ton of depression and anxiety, and time off work because of it. Thankfully I work at a facility that is mostly women and they understand women's issues, but I know some places don't or you need the hours and you still have to go in even when you'd rather stay home because you're devastated by another negative test.

I had given up after my last surgery because I wasn't ovulating for a long time. When I was the most hopeless is when I got pregnant. Because of everything I went through, I have had a hard time enjoying my pregnancy. I still suffer from the intense anxiety and worry that things are going to end badly. My experiences from TTC are still haunting me but my friends and family don't understand this. My husband really wanted to announce my pregnancy on social media and it was so hard for me because I remember seeing pregnancy announcements and feeling like I was inadequate. We ended up doing it and many people are excited but I can't stop thinking about the women who I may have hurt by doing this. The ones who suffer silently because talking about fertility issues can feel uncomfortable. I just wanted to let you all know that I still am sending baby dust daily and praying for every woman trying to become a mother because you deserve it. Everything happens when it should and (from my own experience) talking about it with someone you trust can help. 💕