I love him I really do. I don’t care much for a wedding. I just want the marriage and the ring. I do everything and anything for this man and his kids (I don’t have any of my own yet, we’ve been trying for over a year). I work a full time job. I’m a preschool teacher. People think it’s an easy job but it really isn’t. I have 12 kids in my class and change over 30 diapers a day on top of potty training and everything else. My boyfriend thinks all I do is play with kids all day and sit. That is not even close to what I do. I sometimes don’t even sit unless I go pee. I do everything in the house cook, clean, laundry. My boyfriends works full time as well. He works in a paper factory which I know he sometimes has to lift heavy items. We both work hard. But he gets home and sits down all afternoon.. I roll his blunts (he doesn’t like to roll smh) sometimes I give him foot rubs, I prepare dinner, I pick up his kids and his clothes and toys they leave on the floor because god forbid the kids clean anything smh. After dinner I wash the dishes. Mind u he hasn’t gotten up yet and has been home for three hours. Leaves his dish on the table and ask me or the kids to take care of it and get him water. God forbid he has to get it himself. When I say to help me or get up stop being lazy and asking everyone to do stuff for u. He says he deserves to be lazy cuz he works hard all day and picks me up from (which isn’t even out of the way, I offer to take the bus because I don’t mind being outside I actually like walking, but he insists on picking me up but always complains about it. He says he’s tired of driving me around so I told him I will work on getting my license and own car. I am always on his time. I no he is the only who drives in the fam but the second I say ima take a bus or an uber somewhere so I don’t have to bother him it becomes a prob like I’m going somewhere to go see someone smh. All I do is work and go straight and take of him and his kids.. the days we don’t have the kids I love because I don’t have to do as much. If I have money I offer to buy dinner instead of making it because I’m so tired. He says I spend money when we barely have any. I barely buy myself anything at all. I buy what I need and that’s it. But lately we’ve had more money and I wanted to treat myself and his daughter for a girls day because he had a boys day planned. But I get told on the day we have the boys and girls day that I shouldn’t be spending money we barely have... I only planned to get our nails painted, have lunch and buy a shirt for New Years.. that’s it.. his day is arcade, lunch and movies... yet I’m the one spending too much.. I pay bills and do more.. he makes a lil more than me.. I wana make more money but he’s like why u don’t have to.. I just think he’s scared if I make more I can be the one making all these decisions.. I was always an independent woman never depending on a man for anything.. and now here I am with no say in anything smh.. idk what to do.. I love him and his kids.. they are my family...