HELP!! NERVOUS to start TTC!!??

Hello lovely ladies of Glow!! I wish I had more time to be more active here, because you ladies are wonderful! From all of the stories to the advise...I’m so intrigued that there is a such a wonderful community for women as such! I am NOT a social media person at all, but have an account to keep up with my teenage daughter! However, with glow, you don’t need one!!!

Ok, I’ll try to make this short and sweet! Feel free to ask questions if I’m too brief! A little background story about myself!! I’m mid 30’s I married an AMAZING man a few years ago, and we’ve been together 10 years! He’s really amazing! He stuck with me through a long distance relationship through anesthesia school and many unforeseen tragedies that occurred along the way! In addition to his mother NOT initially liking me at all. I had a daughter when we met who is almost out of high school and on her way to college! I did initially tell him I wasn’t interested in having children and he was fine with that and wanted to see where things went! Fast forward to now, we’ve been married a couple of years and love traveling often, spending quality time with each other and our daughter( his step daughter)! Well my MIL has been chomping at the bits BIG TIME the last year or so regarding having children! He also has started mentioning it more! He has another sibling who truly enjoys his freedom of traveling and each other and they’ve made it VERY clear they will not be having any children!

I’ve slowly became open to the idea of having ONE, but I promise every time I see my fertile window I chicken out! Lol! It makes me so nervous and I don’t know why!?🤦🏼‍♀️ many factors including Wanting to save so much more money before TTC. Despite having a demanding career being and anesthesiologists, I also love what I do but would hate to cut back, however know I would have to! As well as I still have ALOT of anesthesia school loans I REALLY want paid off before TTC, but that won’t happen for another few years!

In addition to our lives completely changing once a little one comes along! I know people say things work themselves out but I want to be as responsible as I can’t be, but also feel as if my biological clock is ticking!! 🤷🏼‍♀️I feel I sound so ridiculous and I rarely ever post but you ladies are always so great at relating and putting things in perspective!

Anyone else have an almost college student who’s debating on TTC, with debt, and life changes holding you back, along with a MIL who’s doesn’t have boundaries?

Thank you ladies in advanced for letting me vent more than anything!