I am just NUMB

Ttc#1 for 5yrs with pcos

I have never seen even a vvvfl.

I am soo tired thinking about a child everyday.

I beat myself down everytime because its my fault that my loving husband can't become a father.

I am soo depressed and in this vicious cycle of inferiority complex.

I can't bear to look at other women.

I just smile at everyone outwardly feeling numb.

No one here understands my pain.

It just hurts too much