Fears About Birth!

Sooooo this is my second baby. With my first (3 years ago), I took all the classes and I felt so confident about birth and body. I wasn't scared, not nervous. I actually couldn't wait to experience labor. Unfortunately my body would not go into labor on it's own, and I had to be induced. Even then, my body wouldn't progress and I had to have a c section. There were some complications when she was born, I lost too much blood and needed 2 transfusions to save my life. I was unconscious for the first 3 hours of my daughter's life.

My doctor has agreed to allow me to have a VBAC, or at least try. But after my last experience, not only do I not trust my body to do it's job, I'm also terrified of dying in childbirth. I'm 34 weeks and each day I get more and more scared. I wanna meet my baby, but I am terrified of dying and not ready to leave my toddler just yet 😭 Anyone else feel this way? I'm so scared!