Still having a hard time

Alot of people look at me when I say how many kids, how many miscarriages I have/had.

Sure I have a son who is 7 months old and here I sat after having a miscarriage (nov)I am again pregnant with another Rainbow (7 wks).

I have told the people that basically come around but dont think I want to do announcement.

Honestly just want to shelter this pregnancy so that I surpass the judgement of others.

Think I'm out to pop kids cause I can. I just want a large family. Idk but i do know this baby is so loved already. Got a lil further this tyme then last.