Wow I never thought it would come to this...

So today you know since it’s New Year’s Day I was hoping I could start fresh with my ex you know since we haven’t really push passed each other. When we ended we still stayed connected and he would always tell me that he wants me but right now he wants to become a better person. So I stayed. I stayed there by his side. I texted him everyday, tried calling and even asked to hangout. All those times he denied me and didn’t text back and would pick up my calls. I knew that was a sign but I didn’t wanna believe it. I didn’t want him out of my life so soon. He was messing with another chick but I thought he was going to push her away because he know how we were strongly connected. Well I thought wrong. Yesterday I asked him if he was moving on or was he going to be with me. In the beginning he told me yes he wanted me and that he loves me and all this other stuff. By the end of the night when new years hit. He unfollowed me on Instagram and he only had 5 people added. It was the girl and 4 more other people. At that moment I broke down, not because of the unfollow but because I new he moved on from me. He lied to me the entire time all the way until this day. I wish he was honest with me and on top of that I can’t get him out my mind. I keep crying and this really hurts. I wish this pain on no one because it’s not an okay feeling.

He told me 2020 could be our year and we could go strong and that he wouldn’t go back on his word...and he did. He lied and I believed him with everything that was in me 💔 I’m torn.