this may seem weird to some & I may even get judged for it 🤷🏾‍♀️ I found out December 6th we were pregnant I had a loss Dec.19 2016 & have been trying since with no luck until now we are very exited without a doubt yet I just can’t shake the anxiety of my loss & getting the most devastating news of a miscarriage & not seeing a heart beat on ultra sound. I now have anxiety about going to the OBGYN & getting a scan it’s the scariest thought ever to me I don’t want to seem like a weirdo when I know most can’t wait for a scan & Im terrified to get bad news again so I’m putting it off as long as possible ugh the anxiety is sooo bad & I kind of feel ashamed Oh wow I have sooo many emotions & it’s driving me nuts I want to see our little creation & make sure everything is fine yet my past hurt has a hold on me please say I’m not alone.