So a while ago (in like September) I posted about how I have a crush on my dance teacher who's 23 and I'm 15. People told me to just wait and I'll get over her but I still have a huge crush on her.

Almost everything reminds me of her. She saved me from committing suicide in July without realizing by saying some things just to the whole class that had a deep impact on me. I felt like she deserved to know so I told her the impact she's had on me in October and for a month she was the person I turned to whenever I needed to talk to someone.

Then she told me that she shouldn't be doing that because she's not a professional therapist. She's my dance teacher and that's all. It was complicating things at dance. It definitely hurt because it had felt like we were really close and then she said that like it was easy. But I know that she 100% did the right thing.

We still love each other a lot. Not in a romantic way at all but in a student/favorite teacher way. She has no clue I have a crush on her and that's the way it'll stay. But now we have this awkward relationship where we know so many heavy things about each other but we only ever talk about superficial or dance things. It's really hard because I catch myself almost saying the more personal things and then I remember I shouldn't tell her. It's just a really weird transition in our relationship - to be so open and the suddenly having to be closed off.

And on top of having to distance myself from her I still have this crush on her. I can't think of anyone with a more beautiful smile, such mesmerizing blue eyes, such perfectly messy curls, such a clear laugh, a perfect body, an amazing hugger, an ability to have fun and be serious at the same time, such a caring, beautiful heart, such good advice, cringey jokes, and wise, unique perspectives of the world. I could literally go on forever. I can easily imagine waking up to her beautiful face each morning and growing old with her. She's my dance teacher!!! She's 8.5 years older than me!!! I can't feel this way about her

How can I get over her? Please help. Someone. Anyone.