Should I go to the wedding or not?

I’m due to have my baby 01/13 via c section.

My original due date is 02/03.

My cousin is getting married 02/01 and when they mailed out their save the dates I was like “Yeah probably not gonna be able to go since I’m due around same time” Fast forward to now, I’m obviously gonna be a few weeks PP and still unsure if I want to go.

My SIL keeps guilt tripping me about going. She said “ I was out and about two weeks later at a quince when I had a Newborn. Remember?” “You should be fine just go!” I told her I was not sure about having the baby around so many people so soon. She said “Well she would have her two week Checkup by then she will be fine!” “Remember your aunt was at a wedding 2w after delivering too!” Or “Just ask your MIL to watch her for the night!”

I keep reminding her I will be recovering from surgery. Both of them had the babies natural. So it’s not the same!!

Honestly I’m not sure what to do I want to go but then I don’t I’m steering more toward the not going.

The only reason I’m having doubts is bc I am such a people pleaser and hate letting people down but this is something I’m working on changing. I need to become more selfish and stop thinking of everyone else’s needs bc they obviously don’t think/care bout mine.

Sorry for the long post