Today I go back to the doctor to see if the possibility of ttts has become greater or if we’ve reached the point where we have to leave state and go get surgery to give me little boys a chance. Cried for hours last night before going to sleep knowing nothing I did or didn’t do caused this but always that I can’t do anything for them. Doing the best I can to not get upset or think about it too much cause it’ll only upset me more at the thought that I might lose one or both of my baby boys.

Anyone else gone through this and have a positive experience? Any words of encouragement would help abundantly.