My boyfriend has depression and he’s bipolar. These are generational since his family has had it he tells me. Last night, we got into it and stopped talking so I went to sleep. And sorry idk what word to use so I said episode I don’t wanna offend anyone.

He calls me an hour later and he’s drunk and telling me to come over and asking for my address and stuff and I live about an hour from him. He knows my address and everything so I told him he knows where I’m at & I was really confused when he asked me that. He kept saying no I (me) don’t live there and why I’m so far. It was all so confusing tbh I thought he called the wrong person. I even asked him who he thinks he’s calling and he said my name and I asked if he called anyone before me maybe that’s why he’s confused but hey maybe I’m overthinking it as he was drunk 🤷🏼‍♀️

Later in the night up until morning it’s about 2/3 and we’re still on the phone. We were just talking about us and stuff that’s going on bc we are going on a downfall and we wanna fix it.

He posted something from before I fell asleep on Snapchat about how he wants the strength to kill himself and how people that don’t wanna die are dying, and the ones that want to..aren’t. I seen it when I went on snap and we were otp so I asked him why is he posting stuff like that and what’s wrong and stuff. He tells me there’s nothing I can do to fix him and wow I was heartbroken because I don’t want my boyfriend feeling like that. He tells me there’s no reason for him to wanna be alive and I’m like there’s your friends your mom it’s me🤦🏼‍♀️ I tried bringing up how we made our marriage plans and everything. I’m bringing up all types of reasons and he still wouldn’t budge

I always feel uncomfortable crying around him because I don’t like him seeing me like that so I was crying but I didn’t make it loud or obvious. We start talking about us again & he says he’s just going with the flow..? I’m like wym going with the flow I need a yes/no as to if u wanna do this or just end it and going with the flow is all he kept saying and he kept hanging up and even blocked me I was so confused I didn’t know wtf was going on

I had to call his other phone to talk to him & shit and he was acting careless and heartless towards me when all I was tryna do was get everything straight and I’m telling him how he’s making me feel and how I’m crying and shit and he just hung up so I stopped trying & just went to sleep. This morning...he texts me this:

I was really confused like ??? Then he calls me and he’s being really nice and everything telling me he loves me and goodmorning and sweet stuff. I didn’t know what to say or how to feel or anything. And this is how he’s acting now- from heartless and cold to this:

If he is having an episode I just wanna know how to deal with it. Or how do u guys feel about this lol like I just wanna know how to feel or where to start