Just finished school

So I just finished school at the top of my class after 2 years of hard work. And then I found out I was pregnant, I love my baby and I'm trying my best to get excited but I can't help feeling resentful that I don't get to start my career after working for it all this time.

I'm a surgical technologist so there's dangerous aspects of this job for my baby, avoidable but still more risky...

I can't seem to shake this feeling and I don't know what to do about it.