2.5 years and I’m only 22

It shouldn’t be this hard to get pregnant!!!!!!! I’m so angry at the world. I’m angry at the people who get pregnant that don’t want it. I’m angry at the people who have the baby but then don’t take care of it. I angry at the people who use their kids as an accessory. I’m angry at the people who are about to have kid number 2.3 or 4. I’m angry at myself for not being able to get pregnant. I’m angry at myself for being angry at the world and everyone with kids. I’m angry that I can’t be happy for the people who are having their first or 2,3,4 kid. What is wrong with me. I know I’m selfish. But I don’t feel like I’m asking for a lot! I’m angry that good health insurance is outrageously priced. What do I have to do to have my own baby!!!! I’ve tried everything. Temping. Ovulation sticks. Eating healthy. Prenatal vitamins. Fertility boosters. Tea. I’m only 22 why is this so hard! This should be the prime to make a baby!!! My SO has already had one previous kid who I’ve helped raise and he’s 6 now. I’ve been wanting a kid for 4 years. Now it’s been almost 3 years. Am I being punished?! What did I do to deserve this. I’m thankful for my step son but I look forward to being pregnant and having a connection with my baby. I have a connection with my step son but his mom is still in the picture so I will never be mommy to him even though I wish I were. I want to have the special bonding with my SO over our growing creation. I want the morning sickness. The small bladder. The ultrasounds. The breastfeeding. The love. The emotion. The sleepless nights. I want it all. And at this rate I feel I will never have it if I’m having such a hard time at such a young age 😭😡