I feel like I’ll never lose my virginity...

I’m 18. I’m super scared when this time comes. I just feel like I’ll never find the courage to do it. Being shy is the tiniest part of it. My main concern is the pain of losing your virginity. I don’t wanna scream, or cry, or be in pain. I’ll feel so ashamed! I feel that no matter with how much care he will handle me, I feel like I’ll destroy everything. And I don’t want it to turn into a trauma.

I don’t know... Are there any tips to minimize the pain and enjoy it as much as possible?