I have really horrible anxiety and depression, I’m medicated, but I’m still having really awful thoughts daily. My husband and I moved in with my parents because we were having a tough time. Well, we surprisingly became pregnant. We’re unfortunately still at my parents house. They charge us rent for the bills that have gone up since we’ve been here. I offer to cook meals so it doesn’t look like we’re basically freeloading. I try my hardest with my pain from an emergency c section, taking care of my baby, and cleaning. My hobby is painting, so when I get stressed out, I paint.

So, I’m painting at the kitchen table, I have a paper towel down, for the small block I’m painting, because the last time I accidentally got the smallest amount of paint on the table that you can barely see. So, as I’m painting, my mom turns around and starts laying into me about how I should have multiple paper towels down all over the table because I “ruined” her table last time. Well, I tried to explain that I did have the paper towel down, but I had just moved it so it didn’t get stuck to my project. But before I could get it all out, she started talking over me, telling me how disrespectful I am, how I should just listen to what she says, how it’s her property and I should respect it. Well, each time I tried to agree and state that I did have paper towels, she would just yell at me about how she would never have talked to her mom like that and how if she did, she would’ve gotten her front teeth broken. So yes, I got severely frustrated and started crying because she wasn’t respecting me enough to listen to what I had to say without talking over me. So then my dad joined in and started telling me how I’m so disrespectful to my mom and should just put a dang paper towel down. Then I got even more upset and she does this thing where she will talk about me in front of me to make me feel worse. So she turns to my dad and goes “I just don’t understand why she’s getting so upset. It’s the stupidest thing. She just needs to respect us and our property and put paper towels down and not lie to us that she has them down.” So, I got even more upset because now I’ve been called disrespectful, a liar and have been yelled at over nothing. So, I left the area they were in and my mom keeps saying “where have I gone wrong to raise such a disrespectful 23 year old?”

Am I wrong for being so upset? Was I in the wrong for trying to stand up for myself? Should I have just remained quiet?

I’m not sure what to do and I’m really trying hard not to go to my dark place right now 😭