Not a fan!

ttc for two months now but I am not a fan of his "stuff" if you know what I mean 😏. I feel horrible but I just feel repulsed by it especially when ttc. Every time we have sex I go straight to the bathroom to clean up good but if I'm ttc and I try to thorough clean my self after each time, am I decreasing our chances or what's up there is up there? I don't know what to think