Orgasmless and losing hope

It's been two years of marriage... I waited for sex till marriage... Aside from some sexual abuse in college. Two years and no orgasms.. or atleast I can't tell if there was. Still hurts sometimes, or is just nothing. It's begun you get better, and occasionally great... but one rough time dumps me back to despair and this feeling that I'm broken and nothing will fix it. Every answer people give me has been tried and I'm still here sexually frustrated and hating myself. What's wrong with me 😭