This is going to be painful to post and very terrifying. My name is Kortney my fiancé and I have been trying to conceive for years with no success. This last year do to a custody battle with his ex we choose to take a break from trying and I had an iud place. I stopped caring about my body and I stopped trying to be healthy and keep my weight down. I have PCOS with insulin resistance so put on weight EASY.

Taking weight off....probably going to be one of that hardest things I need to do. Well this last month we had my iud removed, stopped preventing pregnancy and now we are trying very hard to conceive.

I started provera about a week ago to start my cycle and then from there we are trying out Femara since we have already tried with clomid with no success. I have also bought the ovusense system to see if it can help since opks aren’t reliable with PCOS. As of today I am putting my foot down, I weighed in at 258.2 and I refuse to let myself break into the 260 and put myself closer to 300 than 200. We will have a baby, maybe not this year but we will have our baby. I have also decided that if after 3 cycles of femara we do not have success and I can’t lose weight I am looking into weight loss surgery. If you made it this far thank you!

Please be nice as I am already fragile from what I am have allowed myself to get too. Baby dust to us all and here is to a great 2020!