Rant 🤷‍♀️

So me and my husband(who is trans FTM so we use a donor) have been ttc for over a year and a half. My doctor put me on clomid to help regulate ovulation(I ovulate on my own, but it's never consistent) she would only let me do 3 cycles of it before sending me to a specialist. Well I start round 3 in five days. And I hate feeling the disappointment each month... I told my husband that if this last round of clomid doesnt work, then I want to take a break for a month or 2 before going to a specialist, would that be okay?... I'm so tired of the disappointment and heart break... we planned a vacation for the end of march to get a way for a while without any stress especially if this last round doesn't work...