I can’t help but accept that my boyfriend wants to join the marines this year. I’m not against it I love that he wants to protect our country it’s the part of not being able to see him. He does want to marry me so that way I can be with him but I also know I won’t be able to see him for months on top of that. I would of never thought I’d be with someone who’d want to be in the marines. Just from seeing movies and having friends who’s bf’s are in that is tough. I don’t know if I can handle it. I always told my friends I could never be with someone who’s in any of that just because I’m not strong enough to deal with not seeing that person with long periods of time. I’ve tried long distance and it KILLS me inside. It’s so hard and I know only this will be so much harder. Sometimes I get mad because I just think about our future and it’s not going to be easy on me. I won’t feel like I’ll loose my love for him I just will feel lonely and I worry I will get used to that. I can’t go months without seeing him, or live alone by myself I don’t do good at being alone and I just know when I do it’s going to make me more depressed