So I'm 7 months pp and these last two months have been very hard for me. I've been really hard on myself. I'm struggling with really low self esteem issues, and a little but postpartum depression. I'm constantly body shaming myself. Because of my low self esteem issues I hardly want to have sex.. which I hear about.. when we do I have sex I can't get off because I keep thinking about how disgusting I am. After sex I usually go in the bathroom and just cry.. I can't help it. I just feel so ugly. I'm currently seeing a counselor, which isn't helping. So I have to find a new one now..

So my life is just really stressful for me right now. I'm a first time mom, so this is all new to me. Every day I have to take care of my baby, the animals, the house and pick up after my husband. Some days it's hard for me to get anything done because my baby wants consist attention. I'm not use to being a stay at home mom, I hate that I have to depend on my husband for everything. And since ei stay at home I feel like I'm not bringing anything to the table. So I'm stressed out because of those reasons and my self esteem.

Well last night he wanted to have sex. He told me to suck his dick. I told him that I'm sick of sucking his dick and getting nothing in return. And that since I'm having self esteem issues about my body I can't just get right into it. I need to be turned on.

Well my period is like 34 days late ( no I'm not pregnant, I took a test). Its most likely from breastfeeding and my birth control.

He told me he doesnt want to do anything in case I start my period. But he did like 2 weeks ago.?! So I dont get it. I feel like he's being selfish. And you would think since I'm having self esteem issues he would try to help with that and say nice things. But no. He told be so sit ups then. And then asks me " why are you upset?you live for free". Am I wrong to be upset?