i take my son to work, i don’t make anywhere near enough for daycare or any childcare first of all. i work for my husbands aunt, she is non verbal, and she hates me. i’m an STNA under the table i guess? it’s okay in my state because i have the certification to pass meds and all that other stuff just can’t work in a nursing home if that makes sense, it’s just cause i’m family.

she’s 79 years old, and i take my 6 month old son to work. well my son has separation anxiety, and it’s really hard to pivot her with him in a baby carrier and stuff so i put him on the floor, but he SCREAMS and she hates it, so she starts yelling too which causes her brothers to come running and my baby to cry louder. her brothers also live with her and they hate his crying too, they always tell me to make him shut up and that i should be fired.

i secretly go to my car with my son on my lap and cry. i have severe postpartum depression because i’m stuck i take zoloft and go to therapy but they tell me it’ll be alright. i ask my parents for help because he’s just in this hard stage, and they don’t wanna watch him until midnight that’s the end of my shift. i’m on my own, my husband works like 60 hours a week. i’m taking care of 2 people and getting yelled at and idk what to do.

edit: if i quit i’ll have to find childcare :(