I need help.

I need help advice and tips on how to make myself a better person and a better girlfriend.

This is my first real relationship.. I want to spend the rest of my life with this man, but my shitty ways are starting to show and I want to fix them. I give and love with all I can but my attitude is still bad I guess.

I have issues with my family members and the way they react with me he’s starting to react that way too.

I don’t want the finger pointed at him but I don’t want it at me.

But I feel rn it’s me mostly.

I hung out with my guy friend the other day while my boyfriend went to a rave... he lost his shit over it ...

I didn’t do anything with him other than sit and talk with him and go home after. I didnt even sit next to him ... I sat across from him , we never hugged or anything , we never touched , and we spoke about work and school.

He’s told me from the start he didn’t trust me , never really has. Started trusting me around December ... I lost it all over again.

I’ve never given him a reason to not trust me ... it’s been him and only him from the moment we started talking.

My friend is telling me it’s not my fault and nor blame myself but I just can’t help it anymore.

I just want and need help so I can keep him happy. He’s not going to stop loving me but it def sucks knowing he’s not at his happiest right now.