Hi, new to this. I've not been on any contraception for 4 years after an ectopic pregnancy in 2011 made me realise how much I wanted a child. I also suffer from Endometriosis so have struggled to conceive. I went through a stage of testing every week because of the medication I'm on. But think that many negative tests took its toll so cut down to one a month. I'm usually late so always do a test for peace of mind. But two months ago I did a test. It said positive then dried out to a negative. I then lost a massive bloodclot and ended up in hospital where I had a negative test and sent home. I've not had a period since then. I have a very active sex life, some weeks over 10 times. I'm currently experiencing sore breasts, nausea and hot flushes, I'm exhausted no matter how much sleep I get. And I've got a 'weighted' feeling in my stomach. Something I've only ever experienced three times before.. Before my miscarriage, when I found out I was pregnant with my ectopic, and again two months ago. Feel like I could be fabricating this in my head because I want it so bad. This is why I'm terrified of trying a test. Because I don't think I could hack a negative test so soon after my suspected miscarriage. I know the only way to know for certain is a test but I really can't bring myself to do it. Is there anyone else who feels like this? How can I get over this anxiousness?