This isn’t necessarily about my baby but in a way it is. I currently work at a daycare where I get to be with my son all day. I also get to drive my daughter to school & pick her up. When it comes to pay I believe I’m maxed out. I should add I get FREE childcare. Im almost 30 and have nothing I’m proud of in my life besides my kids. I want to do something with my life, do something that would make my kids proud of me, make them have someone to look up to. I don’t want to be the parent who settled for less than what we deserve.

I love kids and would love to continue working with them but not in a childcare setting. I’m torn between looking for a new job or settling for where I am now. I would love to find something with room to grow but at the same time I don’t want to leave my son.

I thought about going back to school and becoming a medical assistant but in my state I’d be taking home the same as I am now if I included childcare costs. I just wouldn’t see my kids as much as I do now.

This back and forth feeling of wanting to quit to do something to better our lives and wanting to stay so I can be with my kids more is killing me. My anxiety has been through the roof. I don’t know what to do. I’d appreciate some words of encouragement. What would you do?