I’m so stressed out rn, I feel like I’m slipping back into a depression😪 my son is 1yrs old and I haven’t had a solid convo with his dad since like Oct. after I put him out for constantly cheating and being physically and verbally abusive. Since then he refuses to help me or even acknowledge our son. My sons first birthday was Dec. 3rd he didn’t call or anything (same with Christmas) and it really hurt my feelings. He’s very bitter and I can’t understand why because he’s the reason all of this happened. My heart hurts for my son the most. My friend says I should reach out to him and let him know how I feel about him not having a relationship with our son but I feel like it should be the other way around. I’m the one who’s a full time mother by myself he should be the one trying to have a relationship with our son. The whole situation really irritates me and makes me wish death on him all the time and I don’t wanna be that person but the disrespect to my child makes me hate his guts. I already have my mind made up that when he does finally decide to grow up and be a father I don’t want him around my son at all (am I wrong?) I just feel like he’s taking his anger for me out on my son and once he’s done that I can’t trust him around my son sadly

*sorry i may be rambling