Never in gazillion years I thought of becoming a mother; I always thought I would retire early and travel with my partner for the rest of my life.

And then the pregnancy test changed my life. I did consciously make decision to have unprotected sex with my partner, but never thought it was so soon.

Then it became real, 9 months later with the arrival of our baby.

His name is Alessandro, he is a giant baby that falls into 90th percentile, always demanding milk milk and milk, I was a newbie mom who didn’t do any reading about breastfeeding so I paid my ignorance with feeding him mostly formula for the first month of his life. I did so many things imaginable to increase my milk supply when the baby didn’t want to latch. I pump like mad, drank supplements, massaging, anything to stimulate my milk supply.

Long short, I have become very comfortable nursing my baby... and finally able to provide for him, and then work started again.

I went back to work, with so much passion on my first day, bringing my pump with me. I feel like office is my runaway from my new reality. But work is starting to catch up with me... starting to be more demanding, night calls are queuing up while I still pump every 3 hours because I’m so scared the supply will come down.

Here’s what my 24 hours look like:

Wake up

Change Alessandro

Eat breakfast while carrying Alessandro

Shower, get ready super quick

Feed Alessandro

Go to work

Work

Meeting meeting

Pump

Meeting

Lunch

Work

Meeting

Pump

Work

Rushing home

Kiss Alessandro

Feed Alessandro

Quick shower

Play with Alessandro

Bathe Alessandro

Hand over Alessandro to my partner

Fold clean laundry

Eat dinner

Continue working

Wash Alessandro’s bottles and pump parts

Continue working

Pump

Sleep for 2.5 hours

Pump

Sleep for 3 hours

Alessandro woke up asking for feeding, feed him while holding not to fall asleep with him in my arms

Done feeding, putting Alessandro back to crib

Sleep of 1 hour

Do all over again.

I always thought those rants about working mothers have it hard are exaggerating... but now I think it’s understated.

#offmychest