I live 6 hours away from my mom so I haven’t seen her in months. I know she’s been really stressed because she doesn’t have a house, doesn’t make much money, totaled her car after crashing it when she got her 5th dui in the past year. She called me about two hours ago and told me she was hospitalized last night for attempting suicide. I couldn’t quite understand because my mom has always said she was depressed but never that bad to the point where she would try something.

I just feel so numb. My dad passed away in march of 2015 when I was 13 and ever since then she’s never been the same. She’s become an alcoholic, started to get reckless and overall just stopped caring in general. I moved because of how much she changed it was a bad environment to be in. So I ended up moving and got emancipated right after I turned 17 and have been living alone with my boyfriend ever since. I just wish she’d change. I couldn’t stop crying on the phone because I can’t lose my mom, I already lost my dad and that was hard enough growing up without him. I already had to come to terms with the fact that my dad won’t see me get married or see his grandchildren. I don’t want that for my mom