Diagnosis:: Ptsd / Bipolar - Mood disorder / self harm tendencies / anxiety etc.

Long story short I’m getting bad , im cold I can’t feel really I’m blowing up too easily and often... I use to be peaceful .. nice . I had my first case of road rage which really let me know somethings wrong.

During pregnancy I was horrible ... after birth I got better but also worse.

Is there anything naturally I can do ?? I don’t really drink often AT ALL. I smoke weed (fri-mon) the days I don’t work ... but idk if I should just quit or smoke more. When I smoke obviously I’m happy.

When I was 17 I had issues always but for once in my life before I discovered weed and I didn’t drink I was personally happy , discovering myself in tune with myself.

Now I hate myself .. I’m trying so hard but is there anything I can do to help .

I have no insurance and can’t afford health care .

I am vegan so I do focus on my diet and eat mainly home cooked meals // natural things most of the time :3 so I don’t think my diet plays a role ( also a recent vegan)