I Need Some Encouragement

So my husband and I have been trying to have a baby for three years. We finally found out that we were pregnant last year. At our first appointment, we were labeled high-risk and it has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions and stress since then.

I have SVT and a history of high blood pressure. I was also diagnosed with Hyperemesis early on and have been hospitalized multiple times.

We found out two weeks ago that we would be induced on Thursday the 9th with Cytotek. We checked in as planned and it was an awful experience all around. My veins blew eight times before they could get a decent IV. My stomach was sanded raw for the wireless monitor which kept malfunctioning and having to be moved. I had four doses of oral Cytotek and one dose of vaginal Cytotek. At that point they started Pitosin. 24 hours later I was having very intense contractions every three minutes but when they checked my cervix, I was showing no progress at all and was sent home. The plan is that we will attempt induction again later this week and if it doesn't work then I will have to have a c-section.

I am not one to complain and I feel guilty even feeling the way that I'm feeling because I wouldn't trade this baby for anything in the world but I am absolutely exhausted. My mind is tired and spent. My body hurts in ways that I never knew it could and right now, there seems to be no end in sight. I feel like I'm being dramatic because so many women have far worse experiences than me but I could really use some encouragement.